A Little Too Wild: Berenike Haack

We are happy to have the chance to interview Niki Horrorshow from Germany (full name: Berenike Haack). She identifies herself as gender neutral, with sexuality as bisexual/pansexual. Included in the interview below will be an elaboration of her interesting vision on gender/sexuality.


A Little Too Wild

Growing up I've always been told that I'm a little too wild for a girl. I would play Spider-Man and Power Rangers with my male friends, because the "cake-baking and house playing with my female friends weren't too interesting to me". But it never occurred to me that there was a difference between boys and girls.

The first time I really noticed there was a difference was when my little brother was born, I was five years old then. I remember asking my parents to call me by a different name and not wanting to be a girl anymore, although I didn't exactly identify as a man either. With the busy school years that followed my childhood I kind of lost track of that whole gender question and I suppose eventually it became unimportant to me, in a way of me realizing that it doesn't matter what I identify as because it was more important to me to develop as a personality.



Self-Discovery: Pansexuality

When I was about 15 I knew I was bi/pansexual, although I never really had a particular moment in which I realized it. It never was a question to me, I just kind of knew that gender wouldn't matter to me when it comes to love. Around 17 I came to the conclusion that I'm probably gender fluid, sometimes identifying as male, but usually as female or simply neutral. Gender just stopped mattering to me, it's more important to be seen for the person you are than for your sexuality.

"I feel like nowadays it doesn't really matter anymore what you were born with or what you identify as, or at least it shouldn't matter. It's just physical aspects that shouldn't be the most important thing about a person, or the thing that defines them. It's something that resulted out of human's obsession with categorizing everything and now it's become way too important"

I guess I'm very lucky to have such an accepting environment, my sister is homosexual and neither of us have ever felt unaccepted by our parents. They are both very open about the topic and support us endlessly. The only negative experience I've had, as sad as it is, was within the LGBT community when I was told pansexuality was just being too cowardly to be homosexual, I was not "gay" enough to attend certain events etc. It's odd that it's the community that should accept you that does the exact opposite.



People I look Up To

Well, besides the celebrity role models I have (Timothée Chalamet and Nivek Ogre), I definitely look up to my mother and grandmother a lot. They're both such lovely and caring people, probably also the most intelligent I know. They always make sure their loved ones are okay and have worked so much in their lives, it's really the most impressive thing to me.



Hopes for The Future

I hope that everyone who needs to find acceptance will be able to. Every person deserves to be loved for who they are and that is one thing we still have work on. People shouldn't live in fear just because of their sexuality and it's so important that we stick together as a community to achieve that.

Our Interview and Photo Shoot with Argie Pabroa, a Tale of Support and Love from a Beautiful Family

We were lucky enough to get a personal interview and photo shoot with the absolutely amazing and gorgeous Argie Pabroa from Davao City in the Philippines. Her story is beautiful and shows the incredible and beautiful impact of having a supportive family.

Keep reading... Show less
French leftist La France Insoumise (LFI) party member of Parliament Mathilde Panot speaks during a debate on the French government's plan to exit from the lockdown situation at the French National Assembly in Paris on April 28, 2020, on the 43rd day of a lockdown aimed at curbing the spread of the COVID-19 pandemic, caused by the novel coronavirus. - France on April 28 unveils how it intends to progressively lift a six-week lockdown credited with checking the coronavirus outbreak. The French prime minister's address will be followed by a debate and a vote, with just 75 of the 577 lawmakers allowed into the National Assembly in line with social distancing measures. The rest will vote by proxy (Photo by David NIVIERE / POOL / AFP) (Photo by DAVID NIVIERE/POOL/AFP via Getty Images)

Covid Sweeps the Globe

So here's my intro

Peru's Prison's Erupt in Rioting

Video grab of relatives of inmates holding signs pleading for authorities to release injured prisoners after a prison riot took place over fears of the new coronavirus at the Castro Castro prison in Lima on April 28, 2020. - Nine inmates were killed and dozens of guards wounded when rioting broke out at a prison in Lima after two inmates died from COVID-19, authorities in Peru said Tuesday. (Photo by Jesus OLARTE / AFPTV / AFP) (Photo by JESUS OLARTE/AFPTV/AFP via Getty Images)

US-politics-health-VIRUS-TRUMP

US President Donald Trump speaks in the East Room of the White House in Washington, DC, on April 28, 2020. - Trump spoke about supporting small businesses during the coronavirus pandemic through the Paycheck Protection Program. (Photo by MANDEL NGAN / AFP) (Photo by MANDEL NGAN/AFP via Getty Images)

PERU-HEALTH-VIRUS-PRISON-RIOT

View of smoke arising from the Castro Castro prison during a riot in Lima on April 27, 2020. - Nine inmates were killed and dozens of guards wounded when rioting broke out at a prison in Lima after two inmates died from COVID-19, authorities in Peru said Tuesday. (Photo by STRINGER / AFP) (Photo by STRINGER/AFP via Getty Images)

US-politics-health-VIRUS-TRUMP

US President Donald Trump speaks in the East Room of the White House in Washington, DC, on April 28, 2020. - Trump spoke about supporting small businesses during the coronavirus pandemic through the Paycheck Protection Program. (Photo by MANDEL NGAN / AFP) (Photo by MANDEL NGAN/AFP via Getty Images)

Coronavirus Pandemic Causes Climate Of Anxiety And Changing Routines In America

PICO RIVERA, CALIFORNIA - APRIL 28: An aerial view of cars lined up to receive food distributed by the Los Angeles Regional Food Bank and the city, as basketball courts stand empty at the shuttered Ruben Salazar High School, amidst the coronavirus pandemic on April 28, 2020 in Pico Rivera, California. Around 3,000 families facing food or economic insecurity due to the spread of COVID-19 were expected to benefit from the distribution. (Photo by Mario Tama/Getty Images)

PERU-HEALTH-VIRUS-PRISON-RIOT

View of smoke arising from the Castro Castro prison during a riot in Lima on April 27, 2020. - Nine inmates were killed and dozens of guards wounded when rioting broke out at a prison in Lima after two inmates died from COVID-19, authorities in Peru said Tuesday. (Photo by STRINGER / AFP) (Photo by STRINGER/AFP via Getty Images)

LIVE : Fauci Addresses the Nation

My intro

Britain Applauds Key Workers After A Month In Lockdown

Britain Applauds Key Workers After A Month In Lockdown LONDON,ENGLAND - APRIL 23: Members of the Emergency Services and members of the public gather on the South Bank to join in on with the applause on Westminster Bridge on April 23, 2020 in London, United Kingdom. Following the success of the "Clap for Our Carers" campaign, members of the public are being encouraged to applaud NHS staff and other key workers from their homes at 8pm every Thursday. The Coronavirus (COVID-19) pandemic has infected over 2.5 million people across the world, claiming at least 18,738 lives in the U.K. (Photo by Alex Davidson/Getty Images)

Britain Applauds Key Workers After A Month In Lockdown FINALLY

LONDON,ENGLAND - APRIL 23: Members of the Emergency Services and members of the public gather on the South Bank to join in on with the applause on Westminster Bridge on April 23, 2020 in London, United Kingdom. Following the success of the "Clap for Our Carers" campaign, members of the public are being encouraged to applaud NHS staff and other key workers from their homes at 8pm every Thursday. The Coronavirus (COVID-19) pandemic has infected over 2.5 million people across the world, claiming at least 18,738 lives in the U.K. (Photo by Alex Davidson/Getty Images)

TURKEY-VIRUS-HEALTH-CHILDREN

The Turkish Grand National Assembly building is illuminated with national flags as part of the National Sovereignty and Children's Day, 100th anniversary of foundation of Turkish parliament, on April 23, 2020 in Ankara,Turkey, during the national lockdown aimed at curbing the spread of the COVID-19 disease, caused by the novel coronavirus. (Photo by Adem ALTAN / AFP) (Photo by ADEM ALTAN/AFP via Getty Images)

TURKEY-VIRUS-HEALTH-CHILDREN

Fireworks are seen over Turkish Grand National Assembly building as part of the National Sovereignty and Children's Day, 100th anniversary of foundation of Turkish parliament, on April 23, 2020 in Ankara,Turkey, during the national lockdown aimed at curbing the spread of the COVID-19 disease, caused by the novel coronavirus. (Photo by Adem ALTAN / AFP) (Photo by ADEM ALTAN/AFP via Getty Images)

How To Be A Girl : The Starter Kit

Femininity is so complex, abstract and beautiful. There are so many ways to get started expressing yourself as a girl. This is just the starter kit send us your own suggestions!!

Keep reading... Show less

Fluidity.Love Mission Statement

Civilization is in the beginning stages of a massive paradigm shift from a rigid and role-based society to one that is fluid. Fluidity in roles impacts our lives in every aspect. We are learning to be fluid in our careers, moving through experiences but following passion. Almost all the great discoveries of humankind were made by someone who was fluid, moving from one career/skill/focus to another. A key first step any individual makes to finding themselves is by rejecting a role they were given. They may have told you to be a doctor, a lawyer, a writer, a farmer, but it was when you say no and find your own path that you find success and happiness.

The first role we are given, even before we are born is gender. Unfortunately, in the role-based paradigm, gender is the third rail. Forty percent of homeless teens are kids who played with gender and were abandoned. But fortunately, in the fluid paradigm, people are finding tremendous success, love and happiness through brave explorations across gender border lines.

Our mission is to accelerate this paradigm shift, making it safe, fun and vibrant for everyone to take part in. This might be as a parent, supporting your baby who is growing to be someone authentic, aware and enlightened. This might be as a sister realizing her brother is finding his femininity. You may be the wife or boyfriend or girlfriend of someone who loves you very much and is beginning to know themselves better through gender fluidity. Our mission is to help everyone understand, support and love the people who are brave enough to find themselves.

Keep reading... Show less

LIVE with the MAYOR

here we go this is goingtob emaizing. starts at 11:30 est

This update would be working perfectly without refresh

Kids are bored at home

The hospitals are overwhelmed

Mayor says everyone is dying

A woman with a face protection mask passes by a mural reading "Not every hero wears a cape" as tribute to Polish medical professionals amid the novel coronavirus pandemic in Warsaw on April 16, 2020. - From April 16, 2020, wearing face protection masks in public spaces is mandatory in Poland. (Photo by JANEK SKARZYNSKI / AFP) (Photo by JANEK SKARZYNSKI/AFP via Getty Images)

Covid Spreads Across the World

Palestine Hit Hard

Palestinian farmers wearing surgical masks as a precaution due to the COVID-19 coronavirus pandemic harvest carnation flowers in a greenhouse as feed for farm animals, in Rafah in the southern Gaza Strip on April 16, 2020. - Palestinian farmers had to salvage some of dispose of part of their flower crop due to a drop in sales as events and gatherings were banned due to the coronavirus pandemic. (Photo by SAID KHATIB / AFP) (Photo by SAID KHATIB/AFP via Getty Images)

POLAND-HEALTH-VIRUS

An employee of a private medical firm takes a coronavirus test sample from a health care employee to help diagnose the spread of the virus, in Warsaw on April 16, 2020. (Photo by JANEK SKARZYNSKI / AFP) (Photo by JANEK SKARZYNSKI/AFP via Getty Images)

POLAND-HEALTH-VIRUS

An employee of a private medical firm takes a coronavirus test sample from a health care employee, to help diagnose the spread of the virus in Warsaw on April 16, 2020. (Photo by JANEK SKARZYNSKI / AFP) (Photo by JANEK SKARZYNSKI/AFP via Getty Images)

FRANCE-HEALTH-VIRUS

A woman walks past a closed restaurant in Paris on April 16, 2020 on the 31th day of a lockdown in France aimed at curbing the spread of the COVID-19 pandemic, caused by the novel coronavirus. (Photo by Philippe LOPEZ / AFP) (Photo by PHILIPPE LOPEZ/AFP via Getty Images)

PAKISTAN-HEALTH-VIRUS

People wait in lines to collect cash from a bank under the governmental Ehsaas Emergency Cash Programme for families in need during a nationwide lockdown as a preventive measure against the spread of the COVID-19 coronavirus in Karachi on April 16, 2020. (Photo by Asif HASSAN / AFP) (Photo by ASIF HASSAN/AFP via Getty Images)

US Federal Reserve Chairman Jerome Powell gives a press briefing after the surprise announcement the FED will cut interest rates on March 3, 2020 in Washington,DC. - The US Federal Reserve announced an emergency rate cut Tuesday, responding to the growing economic risk posed by the coronavirus epidemic and giving President Donald Trump the stimulus he has called for. In a unanimous decision, the Fed's policy-setting committee slashed its key interest rate by a half point to a range of 1.0-1.25. (Photo by Eric BARADAT / AFP) (Photo by ERIC BARADAT/AFP via Getty Images)

Corona Virus Updates

The article

Grammy Winners

they were all great

Demi Lovato - Anyone (Live From The 62nd GRAMMYs ® / 2020)

Billie Eilish Wins Song Of The Year | 2020 GRAMMYs

Lizzo - Cuz I Love You / Truth Hurts (LIVE from the 62nd GRAMMYs ®)

Best of: The 2020 Grammy Awards

Grammys highlights: Billie Eilish wins big, artists pay tribute to Kobe Bryant

Camila Cabello - First Man (LIVE at the 62nd GRAMMYs)

The Best Bops

This is a little round up of the very best artists that are supporting non binary LGBT communities around the world.

Hayley Kiyoko - Girls like Girls

Billboard Women In Music 2019 Presented By YouTube Music

LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA - DECEMBER 12: (L-R) Hayley Kiyoko, Taylor Swift, and Jameela Jamil attend Billboard Women In Music 2019, presented by YouTube Music, on December 12, 2019 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Kevin Mazur/Getty Images for Billboard)

Taylor Swift

77th Annual Golden Globe Awards - Arrivals

BEVERLY HILLS, CALIFORNIA - JANUARY 05: Taylor Swift attends the 77th Annual Golden Globe Awards at The Beverly Hilton Hotel on January 05, 2020 in Beverly Hills, California. (Photo by Daniele Venturelli/WireImage)

Twice

2019 SBS Gayo Daejeon In Seoul

SEOUL, SOUTH KOREA - DECEMBER 25: Tzuyu of TWICE attends 2019 SBS Gayo Daejeon Photocall at Gocheok Sky Dome on December 25, 2019 in Seoul, South Korea. (Photo by THE FACT/Imazins via Getty Images)

Bad Bunny

Mega 96.3 FM Calibash 2020

LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA - JANUARY 11: Bad Bunny performs during Mega 96.3 FM Calibash 2020 at Staples Center on January 11, 2020 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Taylor Hill/Getty Images)

Vehicles covered in ash are parked in an evacuated residential area in Talisay town, Batangas province south of Manila on January 13, 2020. - Lava and broad columns of ash illuminated by lightning spewed from a volcano south of the Philippine capital on January 13, grounding hundreds of flights as authorities warned of a possible "explosive eruption". (Photo by Ted ALJIBE / AFP) (Photo by TED ALJIBE/AFP via Getty Images)

Taal Volcano Eruption

Taal volcano eruption in Philippines

BATANGAS, PHILIPPINES - JANUARY 13: Security personnel are seen to assist the villagers at the town of Agoncillo in Batangas wherein covered in thick blankets of ash due to Taal volcano eruption in Batangas on January 13, 2020. (Photo by Dante Diosina Jr/Anadolu Agency via Getty Images)

Taal volcano eruption in Philippines

BATANGAS, PHILIPPINES - JANUARY 13: Villager are seen as they look at Taal volcano erupting in Batangas, Philippines on January 13, 2020. (Photo by Dante Diosina Jr/Anadolu Agency via Getty Images)

Taal volcano eruption in Philippines

BATANGAS, PHILIPPINES - JANUARY 13: A villager washes his horse while the Taal volcano erupts in Batangas, Philippines on January 13, 2020. (Photo by Dante Diosina Jr/Anadolu Agency via Getty Images)

PHILIPPINES-VOLCANO

Residents walk past wooden boats as Taal volcano erupts, in Tanauan town, Batangas province south of Manila on January 13, 2020. - Lava and broad columns of ash illuminated by lightning spewed from a volcano south of the Philippine capital on January 13, grounding hundreds of flights as authorities warned of a possible "explosive eruption". (Photo by Ted ALJIBE / AFP) (Photo by TED ALJIBE/AFP via Getty Images)